We’ve made it halfway through the school year-that’s a great milestone and means we’re that much closer to the end, right? No. Because right now we’re in January and February, aka the worst months of the entire school year (arguably calendar year).
At this point in the school year, honestly, things feel just useless. Coming from a senior, I’ve definitely blamed this feeling on senioritis, but I think that this feeling is universal. Everything has already happened, like Christmas, New Year’s, etc, and there really isn’t anything to do. Winter sports are sort of slowing to a stop and spring sports have barely begun, so there’s not much to go to that is school sponsored.
January and February are also peak seasonal depression times; it’s always cold and snowy, and although the possibility of snow days exists, they are often crushed by our snow day-loathing superintendent. The truth is, after winter break, it’s really hard to find the motivation to get back into the swing of things when school gets back in session. It’s still hard even though we’re a few weeks in.
Two weeks doesn’t seem like a lot, but it is when you don’t have anything school related to do and there are so many holidays, it goes so quickly and so much happens. And then, boom, nothing. For weeks, it feels like.
From a senior perspective, it feels like I’m in purgatory right now. I’ve heard from some of my safety schools but nothing about financial aid, and although senioritis is showing early signs, I’m not close enough to graduation or to getting more decisions back that it feels like nothing I do matters yet. It mainly just feels useless and I’m in the middle. I’m stressed about school but in the back of my mind, I’m thinking “I’m in college already, I don’t need to worry about this. Everything is okay.” Everything is okay, but it doesn’t really feel like that.
There’s really nothing to look forward to right now-Spring Break is too far away, decisions are too far away, graduation is too far away-so many things are happening but not happening, as in nothing is worthy to look forward to right now. It’s like I’m in Groundhog’s Day-the same thing over and over and it doesn’t seem to have an end. For me it doesn’t even feel like the second semester until March.
This time is tough-we’re all feeling it as we stare out the window, crossing our fingers for a snow day. Anything to get out of school is wanted, but we can’t get to May until we’ve gone through January and February, so we just have to keep going and hope that it goes fast.